I’m back at it! Ok, so I’ve been pretty much off the radar lately, mostly because I’ve been extremely preoccupied with other life things that are not writing, and I’ve done very little in the last month or two in that area, leading to self-induced feelings of guilt and shame. Don’t you just love those? But although things haven’t completely settled down, I am starting to get a handle on it all, i.e. I’m not totally freaking out about my next move every second of the day. It’s been reduced to a mild, nagging freak out, only occurring a few times a day, so that’s good. Now that I can “relax” again, I feel like I have something resembling an attention span that’s long enough to do some actual writing.
Clearly, due to my extreme lack of effort, I’m behind on my deadline to have my short story collection published by the end of this year. There, I said it. This has caused me so much disappointment in myself that I’ve just been avoiding admitting it and have tried hiding from the world of social media, and to a degree, the world in general. But things are looking up and I’m hopeful for how things will pan out over the next few months. While I’m getting closer, there’s still a lot to be done with it and I’ve been hung up on some stories that need more work. But I’m optimistic.
So, now that I’m getting back to reality and starting to forgive myself for being so unproductive, I’m looking forward to this coming year. For many of us, 2017 has been rough to say the least. But I’m sitting here working on a short story that I’m feeling really good about and making plans for my other projects. I’ve got my tiny little Christmas tree brightening up this cold, rainy day, and some jazz playing in the background. Time to get back to it now. I’ve got a lot to do!
As always, thanks for reading and I hope you’re feeling optimistic too.